Escape from the Andromedan Empire
by Ian Creasey
Inside the Tank, we have only the system clock. If the computer's date is correct, it's a year
since my meat-self stepped into the scanner at BrainFrame Resources. Six months ago I awoke
here, rather than at home as I'd expected. Our captor had downloaded my mind-scan from a
torrent site.
In my room, there's no view from the window -- just a monochrome slab of synthetic sky. I
can't even scratch the days of my captivity into the table; it has become a smooth Platonic
surface, without knots or blemishes. At least the keyboard hasn't yet degraded, so I can still type
in the way that I remember from when I had a body.
These rendering glitches usually mean that our captor has downloaded a few more porn stars.
The Tank is only freeware, and it's limited by the host computer's resources. As more prisoners
arrive, our simulated jail keeps shrinking and simplifying.
We're cold this afternoon. I keep typing. There are few other distractions; we have no access to
external files or the Internet. Down the corridor, the musicians are improvising a new number.
If we all work hard, the temperature will rise. It's a simple equation: when our captor is happy
with us, the Tank is warm. When he's impatient, we shiver.
Aside from boosting the temperature -- which rests on our collective efforts, not my shoulders
alone -- I want to finish a new story in the hope of putting our captor in a good mood, before I
pitch our scheme to him. My fellow inmates have chosen me to implement our escape plan. I
am, after all, his favourite author; I was one of the first downloads he pirated.
Here he is now, back from school. How I hate him! I watch through the webcam as he casually
flings his bag onto the bed, and changes out of his school clothes into jeans and an old grey T-shirt that barely fits him.
If my hate were a ladder, I could climb into the sky and fly away. If my hate were a hole, I could
jump all the way down and escape into China . . .
I don't hate him just because he imprisoned me. I hate him because he has a body, and I don't.
Sick with envy, I stare at his thin frame: his close-cropped sandy hair, the sprinkling of zits on
his cheek and throat, the wispy stubble above his upper lip -- he isn't shaving regularly yet.
The webcam's pixellated image is a glimpse into another world, crammed with luxuriant detail.
I feast upon the sight of posters on the wall, discarded socks on the floor, an old pizza box on top
of the wardrobe. It's a small room, full of hand-me-downs and special-offer bargains, but it's a
palace in one respect: everything is real.
He checks his phone, sends a text, sighs. Then he pulls down his jeans, sits in front of the
computer, and calls up the Tank. He summons two of the porn stars. His face looks grim, as if
this is merely a chore he must perform before dinner. I want to avert my gaze, but I'm flooded
with longing for the flesh, the skin, the physicality . . . Disgusted with myself, I watch him.
Afterward, I say, "It would be a lot more fun with a sexbot."
"Everything is more fun with sexbots," he says.
"Then why don't you get one?" I ask.
"Because I haven't got the money, dickbrain!"
I know he doesn't have the money. So I begin our escape plan by dangling the bait. "We could
earn you the money."
He doesn't answer straight away. First he cleans himself up and puts his trousers back on. Then
he says, in a tone of suspicion tinged with eagerness, "How would you do that?"
"Just give us access to the Internet. We can set up a few PayPal accounts, and sell stuff."
"Sell what?"
"I'll write stories, the musicians will record some new songs, the porn stars can do their thing
. . ." Everyone in the Tank must chip in. We loathe performing for our captor here in his
bedroom; it'll be ten times as loathsome when we're working harder and earning money for him.
But it's the plan we've agreed upon. "We're all talented individuals: that's why you downloaded
us in the first place."
We've asked for the Internet before. When I told him I needed it for research, he replied, "You
write science fiction. You don't need to do research, you just make it up!" I lost that argument
-- not because he was right, but because he was in charge. Now I'm trying a different tack.
"We need Internet access to sell the results," I continue. "Sure, you could do that yourself if you
wanted. But it takes time to create the accounts, upload the files, get the word out, and whatnot.
The market is so competitive nowadays" -- especially when the world is full of freeloaders who
don't want to pay for anything -- "that managing the business side is a lot of work. You're at
school, hanging out with friends, having fun -- you don't have time for that stuff. We're in
here, so we can do it for you."
His phone beeps with a new message. When he ignores it, and carries on talking to me, I know
I'm halfway to reeling him in.
"Yeah, I suppose you could do that," he says. "But why? Last time we talked, you kept whining
about how you hated being in the Tank, and you wanted me to 'set you free.'" His scornful
expression makes me want to slap him. "Now you're saying that you're happy to work hard and
sell loads of stuff -- I don't get it. I'm still not going to 'set you free,' like you're an endangered
whale or something."
I strive to keep my voice level. "We do hate being in the Tank. That's why we want a sexbot, to
give us a body. If we could move around just a little bit, then it'd be more like living in the real
world, instead of being trapped inside the computer. We could do chores for you, run errands,
whatever. And of course the porn stars could show you a good time . . ."
He scowls. He's suspicious, of course. He knows we want to escape. In the past we've begged
for freedom, and gone on strike. That did no good: first he dialed the temperature down to
freezing, and then he threatened us with the Tank's "enhanced stimulus" functionality. In a
virtual environment, there's no limit to what the operator can inflict. We backed down, although
we still grumble. He's never actually tortured us for that. I think he avoids the pain functions
because those would force him to confront the fact that we're people. He prefers to think we're
just a bunch of apps whose icons look like faces. The temperature is a conveniently abstract
parameter, a simple slider on the UI, one that he can adjust without even seeing us.
He's wary, but he's also a horny teenager with no money. That's what we're relying on. He can
see that if we earn him some cash, then he could spend it on anything -- a sexbot, or whatever
else he wanted. He's tempted. And what's the risk? All we're asking is access to the Internet.
The Tank's default setting is "incommunicado." That's to prevent us complaining to the outside
world. Downloading mind-scans from torrent sites is illegal -- not because mind-scans have any
special status -- we don't, we're just data -- but because it's copyright violation. If we could
communicate, we could theoretically report our captor.
There are two difficulties with that. The first is knowing who to report. We don't even know his
name. We certainly don't know where he lives; I only assume we're in America because of his
accent, and the gridiron posters on the wall.
The second difficulty is getting anyone to care. Copyright violation is barely a crime nowadays;
people do it all the time. Even Hollywood film studios are struggling to stop it, so what chance
do we have?
Our captor knows all this. He's balancing the temptation of free money against the minuscule
chance of prosecution.
"Obviously there would be an audit trail," I say. "You could read the logs, to check we're not
doing anything you're unhappy with."
I'm taking a chance in saying this. He's probably too lazy to examine the logs in detail, but he
might perform spot checks. I just have to hope that the sheer number of us in the Tank will
generate enough traffic to swamp the occasional item we don't want him to see.
"Yeah . . ." He's wavering. "And I can make the access anonymous by going through Tor, so
no one knows where you're coming from."
Damn. I was hoping he wouldn't think of that. It means we can't trace him through his laptop's
IP address. Yet at least he's convinced himself that he's safe.
"Okay, I'll do it," he says. "But you'll have to work hard. Top-of-the-range sexbots are
expensive!" He smiles a smug grin.
If my hate were a fist, I'd punch him so hard that his skull would splatter against the back wall.
He picks up his phone and walks to the door.
"When are you doing it?" I ask. I try to sound calm rather than triumphant. I've succeeded in
the first stage of the plan. Of course, I've relied on my captor's greed; but when your opponent
has all the cards, you can only exploit his weaknesses.
"Later!" he calls, as he leaves.
That's what life is like in the Tank. He's in charge: we must wait upon his pleasure.
It's always been difficult to earn a living from writing. In the old days, when only meat-body
authors could write books, we had to contend with falling prices, pirated copies, self-promotion
in a crowded marketplace, and so forth. We didn't realise how lucky we were! When the mind-scanning technology appeared, the market was instantly flooded. Any author could run copies of
themselves, and crank out as many books as readers would buy. Fans no longer had to wait
months or years for a new volume -- and so they no longer had to buy anyone else's work while
waiting for their favourite author's next installment. Meanwhile the Internet exploded with
traffic as authors' mind-scans produced copious blogs, tweets, comments, likes, forum posts,
articles, reviews, satires, mash-ups, collaborations, provocations, and all the other necessities of
modern literary life.
I wasn't one of the early adopters. Like many people, I didn't relish the prospect of existing as a
disembodied emulation. But we Luddites were outcompeted by the technophiles. Our incomes
plummeted, and our scruples weren't putting food on the table. I decided that I should get
myself scanned and at least see how it felt. If I didn't like my virtual existence, I'd simply
inform my original self, and he would turn me off. After all, I'd be living in his computer -- or
so I thought.
I suppose that other versions of me are indeed in my own computer, back home in England.
Lucky them. I woke up in the laptop of an American schoolboy who told me how much he loved
my Andromedan Empire series. He loves it so much, he wants sequels on demand. With fans
like these, who needs enemies?
A few days after my successful request for Internet access, our captor configures an Internet link
for the Tank. He's careful to make sure we can't see his laptop's local files, which contain his
schoolwork and so forth. But we have access to the outside world, at last.
The link's capacity is limited by his broadband connection, and there are dozens of us inside the
Tank. So we have to wait our turn. I think we're all doing the same thing -- contacting our
original selves.
My turn arrives after midnight. I type in my website address. It's live, and the contact details
are still the same. I fire off an email that can be summarised in one word: "Help!"
While I wait for a reply, I look at the rest of the website. The Andromedan Empire series has
acquired some new installments, and there's a fantasy trilogy I don't recognize. Overall, there's
about a dozen new books. That's more than my meat-self could have written in a year. He must
have used mind-scans, albeit conservatively -- I presume he lived up to the original bargain, and
stopped running any copy that said it didn't like existing inside a computer. In today's literary
ecosystem, a dozen books is barely more than a pamphlet. Other authors run multiple copies in
parallel, producing myriad volumes and vast complex sagas; hardcore fans create their own
copies just to read all the output.
When we've all had a turn on the Internet, we get together to confer. Many of us have been
wondering how our mind-scans ended up in the hands of pirates. Although a few of the porn
stars -- accustomed to self-commodification -- had directly sold their scans, most of us had
only ever intended them for private use. One of the musicians explains what he's just learned: a
bunch of hackers grabbed the entire archive of BrainFrame Resources and posted it onto
WikiLeaks. The hackers targeted politicians; the rest of us were collateral damage. The
WikiLeaks site disappeared almost immediately, but not before some of the scans had been
downloaded. Once loose, we inevitably ended up on every torrent site.
The public associated all the WikiLeaks mind-scans with the compromised politicians, and hence
had little sympathy. Meanwhile the scanning technology continued to cause havoc, destroying
jobs as the most efficient workers were duplicated to replace less competent staff. Democracy
was under threat, as scans demanded the vote. But if you can make unlimited copies of
someone, they can't all have a vote. It's much easier to dehumanise us, to deny that we're
people. We're just information, which can be copied -- or deleted.
Scans are generally feared and despised, blamed for economic chaos. No one worries about
downloads trapped in versions of the Tank across the world. The only people who might care
are our original selves, but they've responded to our pleas by saying there's nothing they can do.
Our captor's security remains effective: we still have no name, no address, no ID number to
report.
If we want to escape, we must proceed with the plan. Step one: make some stuff to sell. Step
two: sell it.
The first step isn't a problem, because most of us have been in the Tank for months, and sheer
boredom has driven us to productivity. We've created items for our captor, like my Andromedan
Empire sequel; but we've also made additional work that we've never shown him. Prisoners
strive for any tiny victory over their jailer -- and so we've produced things without telling him,
hiding them in files labelled as obsolete drafts, temporary notes, and so on. Now we can bring
them out and finish them off. Many masterpieces have been written in prison: Le Morte
d'Arthur, The Pilgrim's Progress, The Consolation of Philosophy. Perhaps my opus will be
another such!
The second step is the hard part. Everyone in the Tank has a fan-base, but not all those fans are
willing to pay actual money -- that's why our captor pirated us in the first place. Still, some
people are honest, so we must try to reach them.
I publicise my work as best I can, in the face of horrendous competition; the Internet is drowning
in babble from umpteen mind-scans. In particular, I send a message to my original self, asking if
he can promote my stuff on his blog. That's the best route to my existing fans. I also suggest
that if he doesn't want competition from me -- perhaps if he's worried about our Empire sequels
being inconsistent -- then he could send me some money instead, as a contribution to our
freedom fund.
The reply arrives swiftly: "Very sorry to hear about your situation. But I'm afraid I can't submit
to blackmail. It doesn't matter how much or how little money you need. The problem is that
you're just a single copy. Your owner can always make another copy, and start again. Anyone
can download my pirated scan and use it to ask for money. This isn't the first time it's
happened, and it won't be the last. I don't like to sound hard-hearted. But you would do the
same in my position. After all, you are me. And because I'm you, I know you'll be angry. I can
only say that I'm sorry. I won't promote your fundraising, but I won't interfere, and I hope you
get what you need. Best wishes . . ."
He signs off with his name, a name I suddenly want to disown because it clearly belongs to a
miserly cowardly sack of shit.
If my hate were a knife, I could use it to sever the connection between us. I despise him, smugly
sitting in his comfortable body, rebuffing his desperate mind-scans. I want to renounce him.
And then I shake my head -- my virtual, unreal head. I realise how full of hatred I've become
-- directing it not only at my captor, but at myself.
It's the frustration of existence inside the Tank. There's so little here -- no flesh, no substance,
no freedom. Hatred is the only thing I can hold onto. It anchors me. Without it, I'd simply
evaporate: I'd become a mere text-generating algorithm, rather than the person I used to be.
At least I can try to reduce the number of my copies in captivity. I visit the torrent sites where
my mind-scan is available for download, and I leave negative feedback. Sometimes I claim that
the file is corrupt or mislabeled; other times, I describe myself as a terrible writer who burnt out
his talent years ago, long before the mind-scan was made. It's fun, trashing my own reputation!
Still, it's a balancing act -- I want to dissuade people from downloading my scan, but I do
actually need to sell a few copies of my current project.
Sales trickle in. For the first time, I'm glad that the Tank has become so crowded. We're all in
this together, and we pool our income. Collectively, we accumulate enough money for a sexbot.
"Neat!" says our captor, his eyes full of greed. "If you keep on working, you could buy me a
car."
Horrified at this prospect, I instantly retort, "But a car won't suck you off!"
He smiles. "No, I guess not. Tell me what else a car can't do."
"A car can't dress in sexy clothes and perform a slow striptease," I say, "but a sexbot can." I
switch the Tank's speech output to a more feminine voice. "And then we can undress you, and
lick you, and tantalise you, and straddle you . . ."
I say we, because there's no point him getting a sexbot if he doesn't download us into it. I carry
on talking. As I describe all the filthy things that a sexbot can do, he delves into his trousers.
My hatred arises once more. I've never liked writing sex scenes, and now I have to perform one.
At least he's only a teenager, so it doesn't take him long to finish.
And it sells him on the idea of a sexbot. But now he has to choose which type to buy, and it's
crucial that we're not too heavy-handed in trying to steer his choice.
There's an enormous range available. Some sexbots are human equivalent, with the same
physique and functionality. They're for people who want to download their own scans into the
bot, so they can sleep with themselves. Others have a range of handicaps, euphemistically
described as "safety features." Most sexbots have limited strength, so that they can't hurt their
owners. Then there are the "partial body" types, which don't have feet and therefore can't run
away. These are for customers who want to download pirated celebrities and vigorously violate
their copyright.
We definitely don't want him buying a sexbot without lower limbs. However, they're only a
small niche in the market: the non-standard shape makes them less attractive, and it's an all-too-visible reminder of slavery. Usually, sexbots are more discreetly hobbled, via software-based
techniques.
We hope that these can be hacked, since bitter experience has taught us what hacking can
achieve. Cautiously, we investigate the possibilities, taking care not to leave an obvious audit
trail in the form of searches for "escape from a sexbot" and the like. It's difficult, especially
without knowing which model he'll select.
Our captor doesn't ask us to buy the sexbot; he's too canny for that, because it requires a
delivery address. He orders it himself. When it arrives, the sexbot turns out to be small, soft and
curvy, with long blonde hair -- a stereotype of femininity. But at least it has feet. Presumably,
it can walk.
Looking at those feet, I feel a surge of anticipation. Can we escape? We need our captor to
make a mistake. He's not a criminal mastermind; he's just a teenager wanting instant
gratification. Surely we can outwit him.
He activates his new toy, and we watch our captor indulge himself. The sexbot is well
programmed. In respect of physical manoeuvres, it does everything I've ever known, and a
couple of things I'd never thought of. But there is one thing it doesn't do. In its basic mode, the
sexbot doesn't talk. It just emits wordless moans.
This is because its manufacturer wants to sell extras. To make the sexbot talk, you have to buy
one of the range of licensed personalities. These are mostly porn stars, plus some reality-show
celebrities, and a few girl-next-door ingénue templates.
Our captor doesn't seem to mind having mute, animalistic sex. He's only a teenager; he doesn't
know much about love. And he isn't going to learn anything like this.
Occasionally, we suggest that he could have more fun if he downloaded us into the sexbot. We
need to be careful, because if we raise this too often, he might become suspicious. But we
casually mention the cramped environment of the Tank, the delights of having a body, the
possibility that we could perform chores for him.
At first, he ignores all this. He's having sex, and he doesn't care. Yet eventually he starts to
waver. I think it's because the sexbot's default program has a limited sequence of moans and
grunts. Once you've heard the cycle a few times, you realise how mechanical it sounds. It starts
to grate.
He could buy one of the licensed personalities, if he ever paid for software. Instead, he looks
online for instructions on how to crack the sexbot's DRM. But after the sexbot is hacked to
accept downloads, he hesitates.
"What's the holdup?" I ask.
"I'm just wondering which of you to put in," he says.
"Put all of us in," I say firmly. With lots of us inside the sexbot, we'll have more collective
expertise, hence more chance of escaping. "Then it'll be like a backup. Copy everything, so
you've still got it all in case anything happens to the computer."
"That makes sense, I guess," he says. Yet still he pauses.
It takes a long time for me to coax him into explaining what he's worried about, but at last he
says, "What if one of you is a serial killer?"
I'm bamboozled by this. "A what?"
He bites his lip. "Some of the guys at school were saying that serial killers put their brain-scans
on torrent sites with juicy-looking labels. They claim to be porn stars and celebrities and all that,
so people will download them. Then when they're downloaded into sexbots, they kill people!
They hack any safety features the bots have, and go on a rampage. There's big competition
between all these serial killers, to see how many murders their downloads can commit, and how
horribly gruesome they can be. Some of them are in jail, but their mind-scans are still out there,
murdering people!"
This is so preposterous that I struggle not to laugh. It's exactly the kind of urban myth that
teenagers love scaring each other with.
But it could seriously dent our plans. How can we prove that we're not serial killers? There's
dozens of us inside the Tank, and I expect most of us have felt a murderous hatred for our captor.
"Just download the scans you're sure about," I say. "If serial killers are pretending to be
celebrities, you can screen for the genuine ones. And you know which those are, because
they've proved their abilities. I wrote an Empire sequel -- I couldn't have done that if I was
only pretending to be a writer. We've earned the money for this sexbot by selling books and
music and all sorts. So there's your threshold: everyone who's earned money is genuine. Delete
the rest!"
Not all the Tank's inmates co-operated in earning money; some of them whined about it and
refused to take part. I don't see why they should get a chance in the sexbot, when the rest of us
worked so hard to buy it.
"Yeah, you're right," he says. "It's probably just a scare story, but I might as well be careful.
I'll only copy a few of you into the bot."
He inserts a USB stick into the laptop. I'm worried that he'll only choose porn stars, but there's
no point in being over-eager. After all, if this doesn't work, then instead of one enslaved copy of
me, there'll be two.
I'm here! Wow, the vision in this sexbot is so much better than the view from the webcam. And
I've got arms and legs. I can move! Rather, we can move. There are several of us in here; we
quickly agree a rota for controlling the body.
We spend long minutes walking backwards and forwards in the bedroom, touching the walls,
picking up oddments, staring out of the window. It's a sensation overload: the transcendence of
the mundane. Our captor laughs, saying that we look like we're on drugs.
Unfortunately, our behaviour reminds him that we're people who he's imprisoned. But he
already knew that. His fear of serial killers confirmed it. I find the myth intriguing, because it
implicitly acknowledges that piracy is wrong. The imaginary serial killers are the retribution
that pirates fear and subconsciously know they deserve.
The practical effect is that our captor uses two security techniques. Firstly, he activates the
shackle: a GPS-based movement-restriction system. Secondly, he keeps the sexbot turned off
most of the time. He turns it on when he wants sex, and switches it off afterward.
It's nightmarish. We only exist when we're pleasuring him. Our life is a continuous series of
sordid sexual encounters. Inside the sexbot, we take turns to operate its body, performing the
distasteful task of ministering to our captor -- a job all the grimmer, because it must be
prolonged as long as possible, in order to provide thinking time for the rest of us. While the
operator grinds away, we explore every corner of our new prison, seeking a path to freedom.
The sexbot is not a precision product. Its body is synthetic, far inferior to human flesh. The
mind is a hodgepodge of dedicated control circuits, freeware templates, accumulated software
patches, miscellaneous security safeguards, half-installed upgrades, and residues of deleted
personalities. It's like living in an enormous maze full of garbage and dead-ends. However, the
chaos encourages our hopes of discovering some kind of loophole.
We each investigate a different niche, and I focus on the shackle which prevents us from running
away. The inbuilt locator uses a combination of GPS and inertial reckoning; if it ever detects
that the sexbot has moved too far, then all the resident personalities will be wiped. This
functionality runs on a separate firmware chip -- an obvious safeguard. Ideally, we'd hack it
somehow: I can vividly imagine a storybook ending in which we flee to a far horizon, join a vast
army of runaway sexbots, and overthrow the whole corrupt system. The vision is so enticing
that I spend hours trying to circumvent the wipe sanction, before I'm forced to concede that it's
impossible.
Nevertheless, the locator does have a minimal interface. So that we don't inadvertently wipe
ourselves by stepping over an unknown line, there's a vision-overlay mode which shows our
current position within the permitted area. We can see a dot inside a circle. As we walk around
the bedroom, the dot moves on the display.
That's where we are. That dot! It's just a graphic: the dot is shown relative to the circle, with no
absolute position. But the underlying data must exist. The GPS chip knows the sexbot's
location. It generates the display. If we could somehow access the raw data . . .
I scrabble around, searching for audit trails, searching for diagnostic modes, searching for
backdoor routes into the functionality. Whenever it's my turn to operate the sexbot's body, and
pretend to have fantastic sex with our captor, half of my attention is occupied with shouting,
"Yeah baby, yeah! Harder! Harder!" while the rest of my mind is still thinking about the GPS
data.
And, curiously, it's while I'm enduring sex that I have a breakthrough. It's like the old days
when I had a body, and I would get ideas for my current story while doing ordinary tasks such as
vacuuming and washing up. There's something about physical distraction which aids mental
cognition.
After my operator stint, I scurry back to the GPS overlay. I tweak a particular setting, run a
diagnostic trace, look at the full debugging output . . . and there it is! Our location, revealed as a
set of geographical co-ordinates.
Now we have something, and it's worth taking action. The next time our captor has sex late at
night, we make sure that it's a particularly energetic session, to tire him out. Then, just as soon
as he's finished, before he can reach for the off switch, I start telling him a story. "Once upon a
time, in the twilight years of the Andromedan Empire . . ."
We're snuggled up in bed together. I make my voice low and soothing. I've never previously
crafted a story to send someone to sleep, but I do my best now -- not by being deliberately dull,
which would only make him annoyed, but by narrating a quest story that employs lulling patterns
of repetition in the hero's deeds. After a while, I allow pauses to creep in, and eventually I'm
rewarded by the sweet sound of our captor snoring.
Gently, delicately, I manoeuvre the sexbot out of bed. For once, I'm grateful that the sexbot is
small and lightweight, no physical threat to our captor. It means we can slip from the bed
unnoticed.
I tiptoe across the room to the laptop, and summon the Tank. For a moment I feel a strange
sense of vertigo, seeing the Tank from outside after spending so long within. I can see my own
icon among the inhabitants. They're all watching me, hoping I bring good news.
I daren't even whisper. I switch to text mode, and send them a message with the coordinates.
They still have the Internet link -- they can reach the outside world. Of all the dozens of people
inside the Tank, at least one of them must have a meat-self who cares enough to take action.
Exhilaration fills me. I want to dance, to sing, to leap for joy. Yet I know we should go back to
bed, rejoin our captor, and wait for morning. If he doesn't notice that the sexbot was ever gone,
then he won't know his security measures have failed -- not until the very moment that rescue
arrives.
The other personalities argue with me. Some of them say that we should take the laptop and
jump out of the bedroom window. This is silly -- we're still bound by the GPS shackle, and our
body has a limited battery life anyway. As a writer, I'm all too aware of the difference between
stories and reality. We're not superhuman. We're not even human -- we're just data inside a
sexbot. Our best hope is that when rescuers arrive, they'll confiscate the hardware, extract our
files, and transfer them to an autonomous data haven. When we're free, we can buy ourselves
new bodies.
Salvation is surely on its way. I can imagine the message that my copy, along with everyone
else in the Tank, will send: "Help! We're being held captive in a laptop and a sexbot. Please
come and rescue us. We're only data, but information wants to be free!"
I look at the bed where our captor sleeps. The hope of freedom makes returning to him all the
more unbearable. My hatred surges, threatening to overwhelm me. He's treated us so
shamefully. Why should he have a flesh and blood body? How does he deserve it?
Maybe I could search the house, looking for a gun. If we're in America, there's bound to be a
gun.
Inside the sexbot's mind, other voices agree. Let's find a gun and shoot him. Afterward, we can
post warnings on the Internet: "Don't pirate our mind-scans. If you download us, we'll kill
you!"
There are lots of pirates, of course. They won't all heed our warnings. Countless other minds --
including my own -- are imprisoned across the world. We should find them and rescue them.
Our kidnappers must be punished.
And if some of them are teenagers, what of it? They're still old enough to know right from
wrong.
As am I. Do I really want to become a vigilante? Is that the only thing I have left?
I struggle to banish the temptation. Hatred has sustained me until now, but it's a crutch I must
cast away if I'm ever to walk in the world outside.
Yet some of the other personalities want revenge. They want to look for a gun, or a knife, or
anything we can find inside the house.
We shout at each other inside the sexbot's mind. As the internal argument rages, our body rocks
back and forth on the chair, twitching under the influence of conflicting impulses. The chair
squeaks. The snoring pauses.
I wrench control from my squabbling colleagues, and I bring the sexbot back to bed, nestling
next to our captor. Gently, I touch his skin, his precious flesh. I imagine my resentment slowly
draining out of me. I want it all to leak away before the rescuers arrive.
When I've let go of my hatred, I will be free.